to go really crazy would be unthinkable. a state i know could be attained if i hadn't control. so restrain i must till you return. the craze shall pass and in all loveliness for your beauty and charm i'll yearn..
misplaced...mishapened...in darkness I harkened...I chased the promise of your glow.. and a wisp of light, i boldly follow... the sinewy trails fall lay by fate... so fragile and frail it lay in wait... for the day shall come when you've returned... that i shall more than ever.. for you i yearn..
i miss her lips already.. and its only for that transient moment.. capture in frames.. as years of wanting surge through us.. and motioned my fingers through her silky tresses.. my vision blurred.. my senses heightened.. hands trace down her back.. a heck to the world around.. devoid of any sound..for i think for once that wat i wanted to find was found...
i wish there was someone who would teach me how to draw.. there is a picture i wish to translate in coal.. as photographs jsut seems too harsh.. - i used to think that photography is a hand that i never had..having never been able to will a pencil in my claw of hand... i searched for the tool and thot i found.. today i found it empty.. i wish to lay down some lines...and trace the very silhouette my mind has etched
was suppose to meet alicia for dinner today at holland village.. and i arrived a tad earlier.. so i sat in at starbucks sipping on coffee and munching quiche..
well holland v being wat it is..is filled to the brim with university students hence not exactly short on feminine beauty.. well it wasn;t exactly wat i had in mind.. but it was a nice place to pple watch..
came across especially this gal.. who has had a tattoo done.. and it was quite well done if i might say so..
upon her back was written in typewriter font or something to that effect.and wat was scribed was "ëverything is illuminated" it kinda hit me like a dear friend of mine who uses "edify" in her email add.. either case its pretty much a smack in the face.. a moments enlightenment.. an awakening.. and an utter delight..
well having been a fan of good skin body art.. it was just jaw droppingly good..its just a pity i haven my camera to take a picture to show it to you guys..
the thing is its so sublimely brilliant..just a straight line across.. no cursive.. no twirls.. just the simple old font.. this is its being put alittle off centered.. with the "is" in the sentence nestling just on the ridge which is the vertebrae..
combine that with the lbd number that the girl was wearing. with those slender shoulder straps framing her flawless back with that teaser of a tattoo...
if possible i'd love to have her pose in the soft genteel lights of the setting sun.. an image to remember...
oh my.. oh my .. oh my .. oh my..
i am in such shite man..
i have fallen and then i have ousted myself from it again.
i am glad that i am able to meet alot of gorgeous women in my life i truly am.
i am really really really grateful
cos my eyes gets so much exercise.
but i am still single..
i begin to wonder if there is something wrong with me.
i shall try to list it out..
on second thot.. its too many..
holy cow..
they are pple i chat up.. make friends.. laugh.. make jokes.. shop..
they was one whose character was so lovable.. for awhile i was swooned..
then there are a FEW who have the sweetest smiles...
one who has amazing taste.. or can somehow make the most ordinary clothing look like PHWOAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
one who has the softest skin...
one who was amazingly sexy...
one who is unobviously sexy .. to her its oblivion.. to me its like a vinyl sticker all over me..
a few whom have lips i wanna kiss when there speak...
one who is fantastic in no matter wat hairstyle..
one who only has one hairstyle..
one who has had the same kind of hair.. but hell of alot of style..
the kind that should appear on those women with power ads.
one who doesn't really speak english.. but she knows i love you.. and she says it so much..
one whom i bumped into out of no where and she was cute fab sexy well spoken tall sweet nice smile but ..... married...
so after all this.. and its only in the passed week or so.. i think i shall devote my soul to singlehood.. cos honestly.. i am baffled..
i still know that i have these really beautiful gorgeous fantastic magnificent amazing incredible outrageous and blah blah friends..
but i guess its easier as friends i guess..
or maybe i just tumble too easily into the friend zone..
hmmmm
before i dive into some french stuff i got at the book fair.. yes.. i went to the book fair.. shocking..
well not really.. just that for a book fair that is held by "harris" well its like.. erm... not that bad. but some how i do have doubts about their marketing scheme.. not too sure it really working the way it's intended..
well.. its not really borders...
people still cannot shake off the popular thing..
well.. the title is twirl.. plainly because my brain is no longer some knotty noodly thing .. i thinkpretty soon.. i'll transform it into some pate looking thing which is all kinda swirl twirly.. think sundae..
well its like this.. i am with this gal.. well more like.. i think.. cos she is 7 hours flight away.. with really hardly any communication.. replies come like a stork sends them.. but when they come. its sweet like you ate a tonne of miracle fruit cos it makes everything feels great..but it later just blows off.. and how long is this going to last.. its been like this for 2 years..almost..
i thot at some point.. we kinda broke up.. cos i was saying somethign along the lines of.. how about we remain as friends and when we meet we'll pick up from there.. then she disconnected..
so i thot.. ok.. single and i shall pick up from there..
saw this really nice gal.. and thot .. it should be nice to hang out with.. no intellectual barrier.. no language barrier... she wows the shorts off me.. very pretty.. sweet voice.. fair skin.. essentially you get the geez..
but her being the shy sort..it was hard to get her out.. until recently.. i managed to.. but.. on the date itself. i got a message from this the 7 hours away gal..
i felt like some curse was there...
its like whenever i felt like i should move on.. the "fates" would send post-its about the (one you met by chance).. it like serendipity.. the movie.. except..the guy in the show was gettign married.. which is worse.. so i ain complaining. but how long more do i have to wait...
i just wish they was a sure sign...
in the meantime i guess its platonic friends then.. sadly.. can;t put my foot down.. disappointed with myself
